18 October 2006

30 HOUR FAMINE

Buck & I are leading our students next weekend as we participate in the 30 Hour Famine. We will not eat for that amount of time for many reasons...to understand a bit of what it is like to go without food as so many children do around the world and to raise money for those children. My goal is to raise $360 which would feed a child for a year. If you are interested in sponsoring us, please comment below. You can mail me a check within the next week. Please make the check payable to WorldVision. If you would like more information, please visit the 30 Hour Famine Website. Thank you for your support!

09 October 2006

We are both ok . . .

I can't remember the last time I got so many calls and well wishes. But thanks for the concern. Our household is intact and we are on good terms.

For the 1 0r 2 of you that don't know what I'm refering to, Arkansas played Auburn this weekend. And the Hog won. Our parents called to make sure things were ok, and our friends called, and we even had a few let us know they were praying for peace in our household (True story). But we are doing good, I tried my best to contain my elation (it was one of the biggest wins in the RECENT history of Arkansas football).

But I will say that Auburn fans are very classy people, and not just the nice ones that I know well. Even the random people that I met when we got engaged, had nothing but flatering things to say. So it was easy to be gracious, and to know how painful it is to lose when you have a shot at the national title. So let me just say best of luck to the tigers from here on out. War eagle. and Pig Sooie!

02 October 2006

Okay???

Well, Mel (and others who love me:)), I guess you could say I am okay. That's about it. Obviously, I will not go into everything here. But...here goes:)

There is much of my life that is wonderful! My husband is still absolutely amazing. He truly loves me and serves me more than I could have ever imagined anyone on this earth doing! I have learned so much in our first year & a half of marriage. I have learned that boys will be boys! I have learned that the commitment we made so long ago holds up everyday, even when things are not perfect. I have learned that supporting Buck and watching him succeed mean more to me than most things. I have learned (as many of you told me) that serving alongside of Him will bring peaks & valleys. We are beginning to understand how we are wired individually & together...so, that is fun...and frustrating.

My life is also wonderful, because even in the hard times I know my Heavenly Father pursues me! That still blows my mind sometimes. Even when I am out of energy to pursue Him...He PURSUES me. I experience his mercy & blessings everyday, although I often choose to ignore them because I am busy "fighting the good fight" and I don't stop to encounter my Savior.

I am almost certain there would be a smile on my face more often if I woke up each day desiring an encounter with Christ...if that was my priority. Days that used to be spent seeking an opportunity to serve or a friend to encourage, are now spent running and hiding, asking for nothing more, wanting to give up. I am tired. I am tired of pursuing relationships with others. I am tired of trying to find a friend. I am tired of watching Buck struggle to support our family & do what He is passionate about and very gifted to do. I am tired of trying to find my place. I am tired of doing the social thing and skipping over the "spiritual thing". I long for the old days when I met with a group of women and we discovered who Christ was, who we could become in Him, and how the church was an amazing design. I long for a friend to care for. I long for something right here in Tacoma; once you have had amazing friends, it is hard to settle for anything less.

I really don't know if that lets you know anything...but, those are some of my thoughts hashed out onto this computer screen today. I know it always goes back to pursuing Christ first, to allowing Him to be the source of my strength, my sustaining power, the grace needed to live. I have also learned that He intentionally places people in our lives to help us live out our journey with Him, our pursuit. We are not supposed to walk this alone.