Sometimes you just feel...BLAH

Not much to chat about...just living every day...trying to find my place. How in the world am I supposed to serve my husband and live by grace? It's tough. I think it takes complete surrender to the Holy Spirit!!! That is not an easy thing to do: COMPLETE SURRENDER! I like to control things, even if it means controlling my bad attitude. I need to be praying for wisdom and encouragement, and instead, I find myself begging (a form of prayer) for an easy road. I know that God never promises us a life that is all about us, in fact, He is pretty clear that it won't be about us. But, sometimes I need a ME day! Anyway, life really is good. God continues to provide. I am continually learning. Yet, sometimes, you just feel BLAH!